Being an independent person forces you to be strong and determined and responsive to the demands of life. In the process, you become outside in, always thinking about your demands and pressures from the outside world - in order to survive and be independent. You forget to listen to yourself, you forget to feel sorry for yourself, you forget to be vulnerable, you forget about you. Oh yes, there is a "little" you under all the rush and clamor and bustle and stress of the world. Allow yourself to cry, allow yourself to pity yourself, allow yourself to be you. It's okay to cry.
Being a modest person makes you hesitate to celebrate your successes. Your achieving nature, your perfectionist attention to detail, makes you feel incomplete and that you have not achieved your goals. Stop and smell the roses, you are a success, you are a winner. Think about all the many things that you have accomplished and savor them for a moment. Acknowledge the successes, celebrate the achievements. Give yourself an A, it's okay to fly.
It takes a build-up, not a breakthrough. Like the tortoise, "slow and steady wins the race". It's true!
Ahoogah, chugachugchug....a personal note of reflection for myself from a story that I used to read to my son when he was two or three years old.
I find that this process of becoming vulnerable and acknowledging me in my authentic form, allows me to self-discover and slowly, shyly but surely, my voice starts to feel heard in my head. It slowly feels validated and loved. I feel good. Feel the love for yourself, strange as it sounds, feel the love for yourself. It starts here, your journey has begun. You are recharged and rejuvenated and ready to face up to the challenges of the world from the inside out.
I doubt that this blog is ready by anyone other than me and maybe my wife sometimes now that she knows about it. If you do read this far, please do take a moment to comment. Thank you! I am grateful for this beautiful world and I would love to share and collaborate and engage. I would like to live as though there is no tomorrow and that today is when I will do what is most meaningful to me. Thank you for reading this far. Share the love, feel the joy, It's okay to cry, it's okay to fly.